Longtime in the makings

For so long I have wanted peace To know that somehow it would all die down Yet somehow my efforts for peace and forgiving have done nothing but start new fires. Yes, I made mistakes. I believe we all have. I wasn't in a good place and was so hurt to be losing so much and have no control over my life. I was hurt, I tried to heal to move on but my heart was still broken. I had leaned on someone who I thought would be there and would help keep me safe. I found out that she had been my friend as well as his and I thought I could be ok with it. Then I saw the photos of her redecorating the house I had called a home with him. I never asked her what was going on and that may have been my biggest mistake. I jumped to conclusions and never thought that there may be an explanation. I know I hurt her by judging and thinking I knew what was going on. Now it's at a point where I believe what's done and done, there are two sides to every story, why did I freak out? Why didn't she tell me? Why didn't he want to help me? How could you be there for me and then throw me away??? Nothing I've done has been right and maybe it never will be but can my white flag be seen or are we all too far gone? I want peace and have no idea where to start I'm so sorry for all the wrongs I've done please give me a chance to explain May we all hae learned from this and realize two wrongs don't make a right From here on out my white flag is up Please let me know it's been seen